What heals us the most…

What heals us the most… I drove to the airport on Friday with blurred vision. Not understanding what it would be like to be a six-year-old child who faced an assault weapon. A six-year-old who lost her life. A six-year-old who watched as others were gunned down. Fear,...

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Come Along for the Ride…

So I didn't get the memo... I was in the wrong place. Everyone else was meeting at the OTHER coffee shop. I sat alone, wondering how I would find them. I was always worrying about finding "them." Not even realizing I didn't even know this soulless body I was bringing...

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What I am is enough…

Her questioning blue eyes reflected the sun rays coming in through the ripped shade in the kitchen. The hole in it was just enough to make her squint. "Why are some people policemen while others are drug dealers? And why are some lawyers while others are prostitutes?...

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You can rewrite the story

Chapter One: The Dream. I was seven when I wanted to be a teacher. It was cool for a moment. I felt I had something to give and I had a sincere sense of wanting to help others. Age eleven brought me the desire to be the next Barbara Walters. I wanted to be a reporter,...

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I love what I do

Tonight is my last night of summer. However, I don't really know what that means as most of my life is the same, it just comes in circles. Coaching, teaching, speaking, writing... it goes on and on. Regardless of what I am doing, I am blessed to cross paths with some...

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I now know love’s beauty…

Not a time I would choose. Or even ever yearn for. Not loss or the emptiness that comes with it would I ask for. But My heart finds its way through the endless aches and pains because the beauty of simple love, of what love truly represents and stands for was shown to...

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If I only had thirty…

If I only had thirty years, I would plan. I would make my time mean something. I would give more, do more, be more. I would make sure those closest to me know. Not just anything and everything... But know the real stuff. What makes flowers grow toward the sun, why...

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Let the mind transcend limitations

Let the mind transcend limitations I learned how to walk when I was young. Younger than usual. Mom told me I fell a lot. But I walked early because of all the times I fell. I think about that sometimes. Wondering what it would be like if we all learned to walk as...

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I want to be understood.

I want to be understood There is something pulling on my heart today. It's big. It's pulling hard… I spent years wondering why I was here. Feeling like I was lost in some kind of emotional tunnel. Dark. Deep. NO way out. The pulling on me was no match for my pushing...

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Let go… Let it flow.

Six games in three days. Win all six and take a losing season into the playoffs with one more win next weekend. In the middle of it all, we were getting good at losing the close ones. Extra inning games that just didn't go our way. The tough losses that should build...

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And above all else…Love

It's a simple thought really. One that I could end on before I started writing. But so many times recently I got myself thinking about what Love really is. Why there is so much to say about it. And why we often fear it, and accuse it of being too "soft" most of the...

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Tell Her I said Hi…

I was leaving the event, tired and not looking forward to the long drive home. I wasn't sure what to say anyway. Maybe I will just walk by and pretend I didn't see her. No luck. I feel her tug my left jacket sleeve twice. "Hi Jen." "Hi... How are you doing?" "Ok, I...

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Faith is in the knowing…

She looked out from behind the Local News section of the Bergen Record. "It will work out... don't worry." "But what if..." "STOP," she begged in her calm voice. "You don't have to worry about it. It will all be taken care of. Sometimes you just need to have a little...

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Mommy, why are you crying?

My big blue 8 year-old eyes looked up at mom in the candlelight. The sounds of instruments and choir voices filled the walls from the front to the back of the church. Well, I assumed it did. I didn't know anything about the back of the church. I actually knew nothing...

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Be Audacious. Change the World.

I took a chance once. Who's to say if it was worth it. Chances are, my deep emotions picked it apart. And perhaps I never really knew the answer.... or if there was supposed to be one at all... anyway. I always knew I was different. Take that as you will, but I never...

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What’s in your pockets, brother?

Lint, a small pocket knife, two quarters, three pennies, a lighter and an almost worn down chapstick. When I worked at my corporate job that was common. Then a few years after that, I went out on my own and started my own business. I was in sales for the most part. We...

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Paying it forward for life.

End of October means falling leaves, pretty colors, raking leaves, cooler temperatures and more falling leaves. I can feel the change in temperature affect my body already. Not my favorite thing but not too much I can do about it. The colors are pretty. I will focus...

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Homeless. Hungry. I need help.

Life has a way of popping up when you least expect it to... Funny things, tough to handle things, lessons and sadness. People often surprise us. In both good and bad ways. And sometimes we fight through the bad just to have the moment of good we have longed for. These...

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Do It Good. Love, Mom.

I have gotten about 20 or so emails over the past couple of weeks asking where a new blog was... I have been dragging my feet. So unlike me when it comes to writing, but so like me when it comes to my perfectionism. Here it is. I started this over a week ago, and kept...

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I never asked for this…

Yeah. Me neither. I thought that things only happen when you ask for them. I mean, that's how life works, right? I was sadly mistaken. Life just.... happens. No questions asked sometimes. The flat tire, speeding ticket, horrible headache and burnt dinner all in one 2...

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The art of losing gracefully.

Nobody likes to lose. Nobody. It's not fun. It kind of sucks actually. But there are ways to do it that seem to take the sting away a little bit. Even if it's just a little bit. But losing isn't always about the game. Losing is a lot of what happens in life. And...

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Stay the course. Finish it.

I have been spending a lot of my time at tournaments recruiting this summer. Long weeks, rolling into longer weekends. Not much of a break yet. I am less than 4 weeks away from the end of my Master's degree. Three more weeks of classes and a comprehensive final exam....

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Don’t settle for less than…

I was young once. Some days it feels like a long time ago. Others... Like it was yesterday. My view of the world seemed small. Yet I often felt like there was so much out there and so much I could do. I remember a conversation once in my kitchen. It was after dinner,...

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I’m not lucky… just blessed.

Today is Tuesday, the day I usually go visit mom. My aunt comes to feed her lunch on Tuesdays and my sister came to town this week to visit as well. Today was Tuesday. But it wasn't like other Tuesdays for some reason. Something happened for me today that I am not so...

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I will hold the rope.

 There are a handful of people in my life I would trust to hold my rope. If I were dangling from a cliff, and the only thing that would save me from my death was a rope and the people who were holding it....I would choose carefully. We read this thought to our team...

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I’m closer today than yesterday…

So there I was, the last leg of the relay team, just about to blow the times we previously set out of the water. I can see the third sprinter coming around the turn. My heart started to race. The adrenaline was flowing freely through my veins. I was so ready to have...

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There’s a Beauty in Resilience.

I walked into the lobby of Berks Heim as mom napped, on my way out after feeding her lunch. She wasn't awake for long, so I figured there was no reason to sit and watch her sleep some more. There they were. Always there, on the couch in the front foyer of the main...

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Pitchers, Catchers and Valentine’s Day.

Today is my favorite day of the year. Not because it's Valentine's Day, but because it is the day pitchers and catchers report to spring training. It is my anticipation that keeps me going through the winter and I literally count down until today comes. I woke up this...

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Getting better all the time.

UC Softball started yesterday, first practice of the "spring" season. It's hard to call it spring when the ice storm was all anyone talked about this morning. But here we are, nonetheless, starting our practices for our trip to Florida that will be upon us in 5 short...

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